It's been awhile since I've said this....or much less even thought this....but for the first time I have found someone that I can see myself staying with for a long time. I have so many mixed feelings, I just want to be around him, but I'm haunted by my past. Will he cheat? Will he have another life that I don't know about? Can I trust him? My feelings of past betrayal cloud the present.
Bringing myself back to the moment--laughing, cooking together, taking long walks, having him reach up and kiss me....telling me that I'm amazing.....keeps me focused on what we have..... right now.
He has all that I have been looking for: Well-spoken, social, sarcastic, playful, straight-forward, honest, affectionate and genuine. We are both about ideas and travel.....dreamers and idealists.
It feels good to feel again. To find hope...and possibly.....love?
